He can handle this

As you can tell, life picked back up again after our return and it is much harder for me to find the time to blog.  We saw some friends in the last couple of weeks and they were shocked to see Brad walking, so I realized I haven't done a great job keeping everyone posted on our recovery status. 

Brad is walking.  Slowly.  It's so nice to not deal with walkers, crutches and wheelchairs anymore.  Brad's legs are pretty weak, but he is able to get around.  He can't do stairs very well.  He's not suppose to walk really long distances or walk around the neighborhood for exercise.  His therapist has recently said that she thinks his strength has plateaued and that he needs to have the doctor look into the reason for this.  Her thoughts are possible soft tissue damage that is preventing him from progressing.  Brad will go see the doctor and will have him look into it. 

I went to see another doctor to get a second opinion on my foot and ankle.  After looking at the X-rays he thought that I didn't need surgery right now.  His suggestion was to get an MRI to look for possible soft tissue damage.  I left glad to not have surgery, but at the same time a little anxious that my foot and ankle will never feel normal again.  It's so hard to accept this since the accident wasn't our fault.  I want to cry "FOUL" and make the responsible party fix it.  I still don't have full function of my foot and ankle.  That may never happen and it makes me sad.  I know Brad's feeling the same way about the possibility of never being able to run again...something he enjoyed doing quite a bit before the accident. 

Continuing to pursue expensive medical treatment is feeling more and more stressful as we see the reality of dealing with insurance companies.  The other guy's insurance is dragging their feet and hasn't paid a dime, ours doesn't want to settle until the other guy's insurance settles and we often get reminder letters from our medical insurance, short term disability insurance and medical providers that they want to be reimbursed or paid.  (If you only have minimal auto insurance coverage for liability and uninsured/under insured motorist I highly encourage and recommend increasing your policy limits!!) 

You can say a prayer that all of the insurance companies settle quickly and fairly and that our medical insurance will negotiate with us and settle within the policy limits of the auto insurances.  And you can pray that we can do all of this without having to hire an attorney.  We are just ready for closure and we know God can bring it.  In the big picture of life, this is a small trial. But even so, we would love to see God work it out in a miraculous way so He gets the credit.  As I look at paperwork and talk to adjusters I try to work it all out in my mind.  I can think it is all up to Brad and me to figure it out.  We will be diligent to do our part, but we are praying for God to intervene and work it out in only a way He can.  This morning I met with our insurance adjuster and I was feeling anxious before hand, so I decided to read some Psalms and I came across Psalm 57:2 which says:  " I will cry to God Most High, To God who accomplishes all things for me."  I know He can handle this.


On another note, we had a great Easter at Brad's brother's house.  Our kiddos love their cousins and we love being with them. During the week leading up to Easter I was able to focus on what Christ did for me (Romans 5:8-9 But God demonstrates his own love for us in this: While we were still sinners, Christ died for us. Since we have now been justified by his blood, how much more shall we be saved from God’s wrath through him!)  It definitely puts any suffering here on earth in perspective and also reminds me that there is a bigger picture beyond having good function of my foot or beyond losing money because of an accident that wasn't our fault.  None of that will matter when we get to spend eternity with Christ in the place He is preparing for us.  He has a plan and it's way better than mine.